“Give me time to reset,
Give me time to think it through”

...went the opening line of the song. And it made me think, maybe if we are given the time to reset the things that we regret having done, enough time to think it through, our lives would have been so perfect. Mistakes made right, bitterness made sweet, but would we be happy?

“I saw it coming like a thief in the night,
I saw it coming from the flash of your light,
So give me strength to face this test of mine”

I have already come too close to happiness, but have it swept away. Worse is there’s nothing I can do about it. But I knew it was my fault, I drove it away from me, and I already know the consequences. I expected what was coming. But instead of running away from it, I was determined to face it. Even though I know it will bring hell to my doorstep. Well, for the sake of taking the risk. The what-ifs and buts are forming a rally inside my head. I took the very little chance I have. I took the risk, hoping the outcome would turn the way I want it to be. But the little glint of hope I had faded away. What I wanted didn’t happen. Then regrets flooded and drowned my shattered and battered heart.

And now…

“If only I could turn back time,
If only I had said what I still hide,
If only I could turn back time…”

(some borrowed lines from Aqua’s “Turn Back Time”)

Jhen
09.21.06

(found this on my old files.. thought of posting it.. hehe)